The Effect of Overthinking

Kasey Rivera

“When your stomach is empty and your mind is full, it’s always hard to sleep” – E.B. White

On this gloomy, lonesome night, I stare out the plain window, watching slowly as the cars zoom by at a rapid pace…. There’s barely any street lights up on this busy road, a car crash could happen within the matter of seconds if these people don’t slow down. Hesitantly looking away from the window, my eyes wander off to the little stash of candy,( god who knows how long that’s been there for)…. Wait, now that I think about it, I am overthinking basically everything in my life, eating might be my best bet, food fixes everything. I  slowly make my way to the unmade bed, grabbing the half-eaten snickers bar from the plastic bag, and placing the candy bar into my mouth. Wait a minute… I don’t think I bought this recently… This could have been purchased a long time ago. Quickly removing the candy bar from my mouth, I toss it into the trash and plop down onto the bed. Looking up at the ceiling, my eyes slowly began to flutter closed.. Maybe going to sleep will prevent me from overthinking every single thing, at least for tonight. No matter how hard I try, overthinking easily takes over my mind and once I begin to overthink, I can’t stop, it’s a habit that I wish I had control of, but no matter how hard I try, it won’t happen. I care what people think about me, I care about other people’s safety, I care about every little thing. Every time I think that everythings gonna be okay… it’s not because of these bad habits, but there’s nothing I can do about it right? Overthinking affects my sleep schedule, it’s currently 4 in the morning, and here I am, overthinking every little thing in the comfort of my bed.. Like I always do