Paradox of life

By Soph Del

Nothing is everything

and everything is blank

Somebody calls you

you answer quite slowly

My brain moved slow, struggling to stay awake

unable to keep happy

Tangerine trees and marmalade skies

Poisonous powder that sits on my tongue

Depression is dry like the pill I knew I needed

Lucy in the sky with diamonds

A reflection of someone I hardly recognize

Searching for the person my sister’s light eyes still see

Look for the girl with kaleidoscope eyes

I was the burden that shattered every promise

And my mom still held my hand at night

“You’re fragile”

That grow so incredibly high

It seems I’ve been a toxic mess for way too long

the thought of being clean created a sort of new drug

Climb in the back with your head in the clouds

A memory floods my brain; we’re going 36, driving along a familiar road

      A song we’d all sing, but now my breath is gone

Lucy in the sky with diamonds

I never cared that with each step I was destroying my own life

          I always cared but could never fix the other lives I destroyed along the way

Picture yourself

And you’re gone

Goodbye

until the next mistake,

Lucy.